Pause.

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 I feel as though I am on pause right now. Nothing but pure boredom washes over me as I anticipate the change that is yet to come. I feel as though I have no one to spend my time with. Everyone seems busy doing other things while I have nothing but myself to keep me company. What should I do? That is a question that has crossed my mind a lot lately. For I don’t know what to do. I think of so many things to do, but I have no motivation to do them. So what should I do ? Nothing maybe. Maybe I should lay in bed and not do a single thing. Maybe I should just let my thoughts consume me. I try to convince myself to write, but there is no motivation strong enough to pull me to do so. Maybe I should just sleep some more. But sleep is all that consumes me. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing.


I don’t know what to do anymore. Even sleep isn’t enough. Maybe I should just fill my hours with meditation, what else could I do. Nothing else, nothing more. I don’t know any more.

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